Thursday, January 3, 2013

Resolving, etc.

Just a few random bits about my life right now.

My first thought when faced with the idea of a new year's resolution was, "I have too many plans for a resolution!" 2013 is, hopefully, going to be a very big year for me (school and career-wise), and there is so much about to be on my plate that I'm more than a little nervous about it. 

Last night after Joseph left for soccer, I started going over everything that was coming up, and I found myself stressing out about things that hadn't even come up yet. The "what ifs" and "but how will I's" began piling up, and before I knew it a migraine started working its way into my right temple. I was able to catch it before it went full-blown, and it worked to snap me out of my completely pointless stressing. So I put on my pajamas, got out the knitting kit Joseph's mom got me for Christmas, and turned on YouTube. Before I knew it, I was completely engrossed in this simultaneously mindless and intricate task, and I was the most relaxed I've been in months. I actually giggled at myself when I messed up for the fourth time, and I'm not known for handling failure very well.

Thus, I resolve:

1. To find ways to meditate everyday, whether it be through knitting, exercise, while chopping vegetables, etc.

and

2. To try harder to be comfortable in my own skin. This includes: not defining myself by my weight (although I will be losing these 5 holiday pounds), not beating myself up when I make less than a 95 on a test, and not overly scrutinizing every move I make. I want to be defined by the good that I bring to the world, not some made-up standard of acceptable.

Joseph and I went to church together on Sunday, too, and it seems like it is a place that will really fit the bill for what we're looking for and help me with my resolutions as well. It's a Universalist Unitarian church; the link is here if you want to read about it: http://austinuu.org/wp2011/

Also, if you'd like a deformed rectangle, I now know how to make them! Stay tuned for pretty things; I'm definitely going to brag when I get to that level.


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